I will survive…

The worst thing of being a liar is that even though you’re heartbroken, you just cannot tell anyone about it, not even your best friends…

I have to swallow it, and manage smile in front of others. Yes, I’m the girl hates to put feelings on my faces. What can I do? All my best friends are not around me. They’re everywhere, like Shanghai, Beijing, Chengdo, Xiamen etc, just not even close around when I’m falling apart.

I used to wonder, why I’m such addicted to SEX AND THE CITY. At this point, it’s more than clear. When I watch it, I can sense the 4 women are just so supporting each other. No matter how it goes, they sticked to each other, sharing the happiness, and more important, be around and supportive whenever anyone of them was trapped. I admired them. It reminds me of the good old days when I’m still in middle school, when I’m a straightforward person that can face even the hardest situation with pig. In comparison, now I have to deal with it all with no one but myself. Don’t blame me for lying; I never want to be a liar. I’m just not tough enough for it alone… yup, I’m faking, and I’m not ashamed of it.

Now I finally get what I deserve. I struggled, firmly believing that was what I really need, and which turns out a devastating disaster. And now I have to face it on my own, AGAIN. But this time, it’s really alone…not like anything before, when I still had my rock. `Cause this time, I’m facing my world collapse…

I WILL SURVIVE!